blue forest dark of memory

This year was a big one; as will be next year, and the year after that. Every year is big, really.

I'm grateful for a lot of thinks. Thank God for mice,
pandas,
power lines,
love,
colours,
my girlfriend,
computers,
and most of all: music.

My grandmother is sick. I'm really worried for her.

I don't really know what else to say. I'm just worried is all. She's really old and frail.

The image has no relation.

My daily routine lately consists of waking up at 6AM, trying not to cry from how poor my sleep is, having tea in the morning and then retreating right back to my room.
I sit on my computer all day without doing anything, move to my bed to text people and similarly do nothing, then move back to my computer.
The only thing I do with much worth all day is constantly text my girlfriend, watching movies and playing games in the evening, but I fall asleep long before her thanks to the aforementioned poor sleep. It's not good of me.

On a good day I'll apply for jobs and go on a walk. I have not spent time with my friends in a long while due to various circumstances. Until study starts in January, I'm stuck in place. My entire life so far seems to consist of waiting for things to happen.

At least I'm doing something for Christmas!

The image has no relation. Thanks for everything, Maya.

Lately I haven't been sleeping well at all. No matter how early I go to bed, I toss and I turn and I have strange dreams. My body is heavy and full of slime.

Yesterday I picked up a new panda, probably the new centrepiece for my collection. Check him out!...

...this is getting out of hand...

My friend is visiting me this morning.

Actually, I have three... Two adults and one loud juvenile. Only one of the adults trusts me enough for hand-feeding